Some of my favorite Simpsons moments

"Its a pornography store. I was buying pornography"


"She's faking it"


"No TV and no beer make Homer something something"


"Hello? anybody home?"


"KWYJIBO"


"Oh yeah? Well I won the belching contest at work!"


"Hugh Jass?"


"Like you buy 'em all the time"


"I don't know what you've got planned tonight, but count me out."

Some of my favorites

Finally happy

For the first time in a long time.

The good old days

My 20th birthday is in 52 days.

14 years ago. Wow, I was tan sunburned

Went for a drive today. Through Meriden, Southington, and Cheshire mostly. Felt sooo good. Just singing along to the radio and watching the sun set over my neighborhood.

You're gonna be a shining star

So I'm putting myself out there. Thats my new motto

Here's my list of things I'm planning on doing:

-I'm going to start volunteering at the Meriden Public Library teaching people how to speak and read English. I'm actually really excited for this.

-I'm finally planning on getting on a plane to visit Kirsten in Florida this winter. I need to get over my fear and just do it already.

-Hopefully I'll have some time to help out at the humane society too, they always need people to help out, and being with animals just makes me happy!

-Gonna try to get ahead on my Japanese so I won't be struggling next semester in Japanese II

-Reconnecting with old friends. Going through what I currently am is helping me see how important friends are, and how I really DO have friends.

-Reading tons of "self help" books. Some are a little too farfetched to really help me, but some are really helpful in giving me a new perspective on life and how things work. Currently reading "The Secret" and "A New Earth" to help me through this depressing situation, and reading "Eat Pray Love" (kinda ties in with the other books) and "Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee" (my dad said it was a really good story about how the Indians were terribly mistreated when our founding forefathers were "discovering" this country.) just to keep my mind off of things.


I'm gonna be ok, I have faith. Its hard to see now, but I'm going to keep reminding myself that things will get better. It made me feel really upset with myself to hear my mom tell me that she is seeing a weakness in me, and that I'm her daughter, and she gave both her daughters all her inner strength and courage when she made us, and as human beings. I feel like I'm letting her down by not taking advantage of that strength she gave me. Its in there somewhere, I just need to catch it and hold on.

Maybe adding more to this.

Happy Thanksgiving

Things suck. I'm miserable. My inconsistent emotions are killing me. One minute I'm crying and feeling absolutely hopless, then my heart starts racing, giving me this terrible anxiety, and the next minute I can get a hold of myself and see a bright future to look forward to. I'm on/have been on a roller coaster ride, and I hate roller coasters. But my mom says this is good. She says I needed this jolt to grow and move on to another stage in my life. To get out of my comfort zone. I know shes right, but I'm scared. Everything that was so familiar is gone. Thats just another thing I'm going to have to be strong and overcome. I think I actually am going to get on an airplane to fly to Florida to see Kirsten this time....for real.


Anyways, highlight of Thanksgiving: having a great family, even if today only consisted of my mom, dad, sister, brother, and gramma. We drove by my grammy and grampy's old house on Valley View Drive. Its so different than I remember. So much smaller....but it has been at least 10 years since I've seen it. Oh, and my mom's "He showed us his dingus!" story was pretty good too :-)

"And there he was, lookin' at us in the cheval mirra! Playin' with his dingus!"

Fall in Meriden

Meriden isn't as crappy as everyone thinks it is. I took these today on a walk up to Castle Craig with Ethan! (click to make them bigger, duhhh)









































and just for fun:

SNL Presidential Debate

Loveee SNL. This had me dying, spot on hahaha

Humility...
...consider it

"In Buddhism, humility is equivalent to concern of how to be liberated from the sufferings of life and the vexations of the human mind. The ultimate aim is to achieve a state of enlightenment through meditation and other spiritual practices. Humility can also result from achieving the liberation of Nirvana. When one experiences the ultimate Emptiness and non-self, one is free from suffering, vexations and all illusions of self-deception. Humility, compassion and wisdom characterize this state of enlightenment."