So I'm putting myself out there. Thats my new motto
Here's my list of things I'm planning on doing:
-I'm going to start volunteering at the Meriden Public Library teaching people how to speak and read English. I'm actually really excited for this.
-I'm finally planning on getting on a plane to visit Kirsten in Florida this winter. I need to get over my fear and just do it already.
-Hopefully I'll have some time to help out at the humane society too, they always need people to help out, and being with animals just makes me happy!
-Gonna try to get ahead on my Japanese so I won't be struggling next semester in Japanese II
-Reconnecting with old friends. Going through what I currently am is helping me see how important friends are, and how I really DO have friends.
-Reading tons of "self help" books. Some are a little too farfetched to really help me, but some are really helpful in giving me a new perspective on life and how things work. Currently reading "The Secret" and "A New Earth" to help me through this depressing situation, and reading "Eat Pray Love" (kinda ties in with the other books) and "Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee" (my dad said it was a really good story about how the Indians were terribly mistreated when our founding forefathers were "discovering" this country.) just to keep my mind off of things.
I'm gonna be ok, I have faith. Its hard to see now, but I'm going to keep reminding myself that things will get better. It made me feel really upset with myself to hear my mom tell me that she is seeing a weakness in me, and that I'm her daughter, and she gave both her daughters all her inner strength and courage when she made us, and as human beings. I feel like I'm letting her down by not taking advantage of that strength she gave me. Its in there somewhere, I just need to catch it and hold on.
Maybe adding more to this.
